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Until I Die

by Deidra Duncan

A resistance fighter and an enemy colonel build trust in a fallen America that wants both of them broken. The romance is brutal, tender, and stubbornly hopeful - check the warnings first, then buckle in.

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Content warnings: Sexual assault, Rape, Sexual harassment, Sexual content, Violence, Graphic violence, Gun violence, Torture, Murder, Kidnapping, Death, Death of a parent, Child death, Grief, Mental illness, PTSD, Panic attacks, Suicidal ideation, Self-harm, Trauma, Forced institutionalization, Injury detail, Misogyny, Sexism, Religious bigotry, War, Genocide, Classism, Blood, Fire, Captivity, Pregnancy, Physical abuse, Emotional abuse

Length484 pages

Story statusStandalone

Spice2/5 · Emotional / vulnerable intimacy

PacingMedium

Story profile

What the story promises

The strongest reviewed signals about romance, fantasy, and the reading experience.

Romance promise

Enemies to lovers
Male/female pairing (M/F)
Slow burn
Medium
Emotional / vulnerable intimacy
Book hangover

Anti-hero
Reluctant allies to lovers
Tension / anticipation
Cathartic release
Morally gray
Forbidden love
Slow burn with late spice
Beautiful grief
Damaged survivor
Morally gray love interest (LI)
Desperate / urgent
Earned hope
War general / commander
Protective love interest
Vanilla with emotion
The angst delivered
Assassin/spy
Hurt/comfort
Touch starvation
Longing glances
Star-crossed
Possessive/protective
Touch her and die
Mine declarations
Found family

Fantasy promise

Sci-fi romance
War front / rebellion
Dystopian
Humans only
Bunker / base / compound
Post-apocalyptic

Forced alliance
Survival romance
Military romance
Dark romance

Reading experience

First person
Dark
Raw
Devastating
High
Warrior/fighter

Mental health rep
Intense
Emotional
Survivor
Anxiety rep
Heartbreaking
Cinematic
Rebel leader / revolutionary
Hopeful
Yearning
Fast-paced
Tense
Gritty
Underground rebellion
Bonds forged in war
Survival against impossible odds
Star-crossed lovers
Enemies forced to ally
Morally complex
No one is safe
Sacrifice for love
Political intrigue
Will make you cry

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Book details

Length: 484 pages
Publisher: Deidra Duncan
Language: English
Format: Book